"Depression & drug abuse"

It started happening when i was 13, this is when i started to feel depressed about everything including school, general mental health (self harm) and myself. I started stealing my mums pain medication and i was taking a couple to a few strips a day. fast forward to when I was 15, i was drinking alcohol and taking ecstasy and acid constantly and even did it on school grounds - and still taking the prescription painkillers. I overdosed a lot and was in and out of hospital every month or so, one time having all my front teeth smashed out from getting in trouble under the influence. I got sectioned not longer after and was under section 2 of the mental health act (28 days in hospital), mainly from being out of control on xanax and alcohol but all the problems combined into one big mess. 1 month passes and i head back home, finally clean. I fell in love for the first time in my life and was in a relationship for several months. It ended because i found out i was being cheated on, drug and alcohol use ramped up once again… suicidal tendencies deteriorated and i felt like a threat to myself and others, completely lost.

Fast forward to age 17, regularly taking opiates/opioids, and drinking somewhat heavily and definitely frequently and still taking acid. A year of that hell goes by and i tried to take my own life again over being rejected by a girl, now aged 18 and now diagnosed with bpd. Still drinking and taking dihydrocodeine, my best friend and my ex who cheated on me as stated here passed away, both accidental. Heartbroken and lost in life i kept drowning myself away in grief, met another girl almost a year later, together for a year and a few months and broke up due to complications (heavy on the dihydrocodeine at this point).

After being severely betrayed and overall upset about life again, i decided it was time to get some help, now aged 20 - i opened up to my dad, mum and stepdad about what’s been going on and what my substance misuse was doing to me and how it’s affected my life from the start of using, very emotional time for all of us. being difficult to open up about it, a good friend of mine referred me to try Inclusion and I’ve felt a lot more stability and have been put on a treatment plan for my opiate addiction, with it being both maturity and support from inclusion i’ve felt a lot better with how i am with things (how to cope, having people to talk to who have share’d similar experiences) and i strongly recommend it if you need desperate help, the service response was better than most and the staff are understanding and experienced with mental health and substance misuse as a whole, great service for the ones out there who feel trapped in that pit of despair. I’m not completely cured but inclusion builds up routine and general help on all vectors