"It controlled my life"

I have been a heavy habitual user of cocaine to the the point it controlled my life my ability to have a choice of anything but using.  It consumed my life, I still managed to function which made it worse as I would use my dependence as a reason to make life seem normal and reward myself for getting through the day by snorting in the evenings. It was a revolving door of emptiness, deceit, lies and concocting anything that didn’t rely on using.

I looked online for help many times but couldn’t find anyone to reach out to I was looking but stilll encapsulated with my addiction.

Finally I admitted my addiction to my GP it was a feeling of huge relief to finally admit to someone I was in huge trouble and my life was out of control. My GP referred me to CGL, the service was fluid whilst it was daunting I went through the enrolment happy in the knowledge I had finally admitted I had a major problem.

I took a call from Gavin initially finally I talked to someone who not only got me, but understood where I was, I had help.. Gavin has been a huge help in my ongoing challenge which has and still is Rocky.  His words commitment dedication and understanding have hugely helped and I cannot thank him enough, without Gavin I would not be writing this now and writing this assists with my recovery.

Gavin is still in touch with me as I write.. I also had a very good 18 week programme with Elly processing foundations of growth, extremely insightful, thought provoking and delivered articulately in a fun way by Elly for this I thank her as it kept me on a clear path to abstinence.