"My experience on the ward"

I’ve been here in Lucy Wade ward for over two months and finally I’m leaving on Tuesday...

Some would think I’m happy to be leaving, especially with me “starting a new life” and “moving on” as I’ve been told. Truth is- I’m actually going to miss this place in a weird way. Especially certain staff, the ones that I actually trust, and the ones that have helped me overcome so much! Even when I didn’t feel like life was worth living! They still pushed and helped me feel some what human. 

They’ve embraced my weird obsession with weird things (stickers, hedgehogs) 

Not with judgement but understanding that when it’s to much I use them to cope. 

Here is a thing I wrote in my book when I first came here:

“Anyway the staff again a lot like Harry Potter, (I’m not sure on names) but you have some bank staff- dementors, they try and talk to you until one of the ‘professors’ get rid of them. Especially when they are new. (I don’t like new people, they scare me.) 

You have Hagrid aka boss man Paul, he’s great! A few of the nurses are a lot like Luna! (In a good way!)” 

I feel scared about leaving here, yet I think coming here in the first place (even if it was on a section) was the best thing for me. As I’ve learnt so much! And I’m willing to give life another try. I’ve got to fight! I’ve learnt a lot of techniques which should help me. And most importantly I’ve learnt to respect myself. (Which is really hard!) 

I wouldn’t be alive if it wasn’t for the staff on Lucy Wade! 

Thank you all! For everything! 

You're all amazing! And don’t forget to look after yourselves! Put you first! And have milkshakessssss.