"Let down yet again"

For the last 10 years I’ve been trying to get help for my mental health issues.

Today I received a phone call for a telephone appointment having avoided nhs counselling like the plague because of previous experience with the service over the years.

I finally plucked up the courage to go for it knowing that it’s what I needed.

Because I smoke cannabis daily (which I knew I shouldn’t have said on the form but like an idiot I did) the appointment ended in telling me that I could not use the service without using another service to stop the smoking first.

I smoke as a coping mechanism but I don’t see how it’s any different to someone having a glass of wine after work to wind down.

I run my own business. I am intelligent and insightful and able to be productive when I’m not experiencing incredibly low mood, but because I smoke as a way to stop my brain chattering I’ve been left to feel like there’s no way out.

Really disappointed and pretty upset actually.

Back to the drawing board I guess.