"I don't think I would be in hospital if I was listened to"

I contacted Rushcliffe Mental Health Team via the crisis team in November after wanting to end my own life. I have had numerous attempts in the past. I was told that I could be seen the next day by a duty worker at the RMHT. This didn’t happen. It took me 3 more days to be seen after begging them to see me. 

When I was seen I was seen by a CPN there who had 15 minutes to talk to me as they were seeing another patient after. I feel like I had to rush everything quickly. After explaining how suicidal I was and that I just didn’t feel safe, I was told to go home and have a hot bath and that I would feel better. What happened that night was that I had gone away feeling more ashamed and embarrassed than I did before I went in. 

I was sectioned that evening for trying to commit suicide. I don’t feel this would have happened. (I’m still in Hospital now) if I had felt I was properly listened to. And given more advice on how to cope. I was practically left to my own suicidal thoughts!