"lost faith Gynaecology"

Initally I had a procedure a while back for a condition which means I need to have check ups every 6 months.  I don't feel I was fully informed of my condition.  A week or so later I had to seek private medical treatment for something that had developed from the op and get relief from the pain i was in as this department could not help me, Apparently I would have to wait 4 weeks and that was for an urgent appt.  Even my GP couldnt belive it.

I recently attended for one of my check ups which is one of the worst ones ive ever had.

Firstly there always seems to be a Jnr Doc in attendace.  Granted they are always introduced,  but as a patient never asked if I have any objections to this.  From RCOG information it states that it is the patient's decision whether they choose to have them there or not.  I have always felt uncomfortable with another Jnr Doc at my appointments & examinations.  I havent objected in tbe past for fear of coming across as unpolite as I understand observing Snr Doctors is an essential part of their training.

My examination then commenced which also required another simple procedure which should have been what is usually an uncomfortable experience but not painful.  This however was not the case.  I did yell with the pain I felt.  I asked my Gyn to stop.  

They did stop but did not remove the speculum.  I was left gripping the chair in tears, trembling all over and experiencing internal pain.

I was lying in a complete state with 3 people in attendance having no real reassurance when I showed signs of distress and discomfort.  My Gyn did say what they were doing but this did not assure me in regard with the internal pinching excruciating pain I felt.  This was most extremely undignified, embarrassing and distressing for myself.  

My Gyn did apologise afterwards which I can accept, and had some light conversation afterwards,  but i cant help feeling that the exam may have been carried out a little slower than usual, maybe for the Jnr Docs learning/benefit, I just dont know.  All I know is that I will live the next 6 months with fear and dread of returning there.  I do not think I could experience this again as I would have to request that my husband be present at least. That way when when I say no more and stop, then hopefully in line with 'maintaining boundaries in intimate examinations'my request will be honored.

When a patient says no that should be respected and choice should be given in regards to other health professionals being present. 

I still remain in tears and in discomfort.