"Disgraceful lack of mental health awareness"

As stated in the title, I had a horrible interaction with one of the doctors this week (06/09/19). I went it as I'm suffering with my mental health and have been feeling suicidal. It takes a lot for me to speak about how I feel so going to the doctors is very difficult for me.

After 40 minutes waiting, I finally got to see the Dr, From the moment I told them what was wrong with me they were so jovial about everything.

I asked them to read what I'd written on my phone about how I'm feeling as I can't always verbalise it due to my anxiety.

they saw on my phone I am due to go on holiday in a weeks time so after I tearfully told them I'm thinking of suicide they told me 'oh you can't die you're going on holiday!' which instantly made me uneasy. They then handed my phone back to me and told me to read it to them even thought I told them I couldn't face reading it. I didn't even get 3 sentences in without them CONSTANTLY talking over me making unprofessional remarks, telling me I was being 'silly' about the thoughts I'm having, telling me 'you're a beautiful girl you can't die' as thought I have control over how I feel. I didn't go to be given the 'there there' bit, I went for serious medical help for a very sensitive and painful issue from a medical professional. So I walked out. This experience caused me to have an extremely embarrassing panic attack in the waiting area, to which one of the receptionists, responded by taking me into a side room and getting me a drink. I wish I could remember her name because she was amazing and treated me with more dignity than the doctor. Who might I add, followed me at first and then slunk away when I told the receptionist what happened without even apologising. I then saw another doctor who was extremely kind and listened to everything I had to say sympathetically and actually gave me some good advice, changed my medication and advised me to seek counselling.

I usually would not talk openly about my experience but I am so disgusted by how I was handled when I went in at my lowest ebb. I want to warn others who have mental health issues or any sensitive issue they don't want to have trivialised, to please avoid seeing this particular doctor.