"I have been in a dark place, but now the sun has come out"

  I found myself in a bad place, I knew I needed to seek help although I always thought I was bomb proof,   and this was very alien to me, I have never asked for help in my life that's how I knew things  where really bad.   first contact was so important to me, I was made to feel its allowed to have feelings..I did feel sorry for the girlie on the end of the phone during that first consult, , I spent much of it in tears... which resulted in me going in to see someone and going through some of my issues, and there where many...after a few sessions with her I then went on to a councillor by the name of Steve there was a mutual respect which was good on my part. he had a way in showing me how just putting a plaster over my problems was not me dealing with stuff, I had many tears, but they all turned to be honest ones.   my self destruct button is still there, but not being used as much, and seeing things from a different prospective, when you are just filled with so much anger, and not knowing how to direct it or take charge of it, just ate me up inside... not saying it was easy, its hard to admit to yourself no one is a super hero and hiding things away may work for a while but the reality can be far harder ... but to say I find myself today in a much better place. dealing with issues that I just jumped on and tried to keep well hid. I have been in a dark place, but now the sun has come out, and putting a fresh coat of paint of house and life...