"Never again"

I’ve been admitted here 3 times in the last 8 months. Each time was worse than the previous. Apart from a small handful of staff (most of which were bank staff) no one cared about any of the patients. You never seen lost of the staff. Your given the names of your 2 main staff members upon admittance. But never introduced to them. No one ever talked to me (staff wise) you were basically admitted and forgot about until your CPA meeting. And the CPA meetings are a joke. They don’t listen to you. They simply discharge you. the 2nd time I was admitted at the CPA meeting I was given an opportunity to speak. The psychiatrist just told me I was waiting there time and I needed to take responsibility myself (Erim that’s why I was there. To get help for myself) I was discharged there and then.

very abruptly manhandled by 3 staff members out of the building. Didn’t even get the opportunity to arrange anyone to be outside waiting for me. The last time was 5/6 weeks ago. I was there 5 days. Only spoke to one member of staff for 10 minutes once in that 5 days. At the CPA meeting they psychiatrist decided hospital was to dangerous for me (there were a couple of roudy patients that played up and they noticed I was emotional the hours before the meeting. They decided I couldn’t cope. They didn’t listen to me when I tried to explain that these roudy patients had been there as long as I was. And they didn’t effect me in any way before the few hours before the meeting. It wasn’t them I was emotional over. It was because I knew the CPA meeting would result in discharge and I knew that was dangerous for me. They didn’t care. I was admitted because I was a serious danger to myself. I even managed to do harm to myself whilst an inpatient. They also knew my intentions as soon as I left were to take my life. And I had lethal means. I begged them to admit me properly. But they still insisted I’d be safer discharged. The only reason im still here now is becuase I’ve not been on my own what so ever since being discharged and haven’t had the opportunity. I’m still very suicidal. And I self harm very regularly. I have no support from the community team and home base treatment team only seen me twice when I was discharged.

This hospital is a joke. I’ve come out worse every time.

There is no way I will ever go back in there voluntary again. The staff just sit in the back of the office all day and don’t interact or anything. Yet there supposed to be assessing you for the period before your CPA meeting. The NHS mental health system is a joke.

And before PALS reply asking me to contact them to talk about my concerns. I already have. Several times. I’ve filed several reports with loads of details/information and evidence. All I’ve ever had back is the standard we will like ok into it and get back to you in due course. The first report was filed in December 2017. No one has got back to me. So PALS are just as much as a joke.