"Having my 1st baby at Queens"

I ended up having a emergency c-section at Queens after a long labour.

I felt the staff I met were uncaring and insensitive. I felt scared and like i had no control over my labour.

I felt they wanted me out soon as possible and I felt like it was my fault my baby didn't want to come out, which at the time was distressing, which made it harder. One of the midwives even made me push for 2 hours when i was still only 6cm, and still a layer over my baby's head which she only found out when a surgeon came.

After my c-section i found it hard to even move to get my baby when she was crying, which made me cry. Every time i rang the alarm for help to get up, a nurse would come huffing and puffing, give me my baby, and walk off without a word of support.

Sometimes they took my baby away from me for an hour each time to feed her, when all i asked for was a bottle. On the same night as my operation i was left in the toilet undressed and bleeding, unable to dress myself from where my stitch's pulling out every time i moved.

It felt like the worst experience ever, from the moment i got there to the moment i left I felt it was a nightmare and would be terrified of going back there if fell again.

This is the only time in a woman's life that she needs that support and to feel comfortable and safe and i really really think it is a disgrace. A friendly face goes a long way when you're hormonal, tired and in a lot of pain. I had nightmares for months.