"Given up been let down by everyone and can not..."

I am writing this so someone out there is aware for years i have seeked help from the mental health team in watford after been refered by my gp many years i was told i had bipolar and dilusioanal disorder during my assesment the man that decided i had bipolar slept through the assesment and when he woke that what he decide i had i had someone with me in meeting and we were both v shocked for years i was pumped full of drugs by them made more ill depresed sucidal each time i try to tel someone that i was getting very bad side affects i was told i was wrong and they gave me double the dose then years after a new doctor arrived in colne house watford i was lied to by my care corodiator many times and i would say one thing and another would be documented something totally nothing to do with talk also not one appointment i was and havr been given in all the years i been there every appointment either cancelled or changed or told wat am i doing there i have no appointment?even tho i have proof on my tx message i have recently lost my partner of 15years i have lost a close friend my beautiful little cat that got me thru everyday also died also i have now from having bipolar for over 5 years all of a sudden a new doctor see me 3 times over 1 years for about 50mins in totally and decide i am not depressed or anxious or have bipolr or dilusional apprently all went overnight then she changed it to serve learn8ng disabilty also i am being made homeless and have gone thru complete hell for last two years i can not go on any longer been let down by all the ppl that were refered to by hp to help me i can not rrad understand post i got ptsd too and sit alone in dark everyday my life finished and the mental health service have actually made me more ill and i can not go on every single day i dont know how i get thru i have serve depression extreme axenty ptsd and learning disabilty dylestic i am being made homeless and i can not cope go on anymore please who ever is in charge this need to be sorted asap many ppl will end up taking there own lifes dont know if any make sense to anyone i am finished