"Acdf operation 2016"

In May 2016 I had ACDF taking 3 vertebrae out... I stayed overnight on an open ward.. There are shared toilet,shower and sink to have a wash.. After looking in the sink someone had spat in it.. Needless to say I didn't want to wash in there.. I stayed in 1 night discharged and left to push 2 Zimmer frames down a long corridor with my husband carrying my bag.. The lifts weren't working properly and were not stopping on the floors.. standing there waiting for 10 mins while my husband run down the stairs to take the Zimmer frames while I waited for the lift.. I then had to wait leaning against a wall waiting for my husband to get the car..All this 24hrs after a major op.. Why you ask am I reviewing now.. carry on reading please.. 1 year later I got to see the neurologist... 1 year after my operation!!.. Still ongoing mobility problems amongst a lot of other things.. I was referred for another MIR at QE.. I did leave it late to cancel the day before.. but I cancelled the mri.. I asked for an mri at good hope hospital which is closer.. 7 months and 3 calls to PALS

I got an appointment at good hope..It was an very small MRI scanner and I had a panic attack.. I called my neurosurgeon secretary who emailed my neurosurgeon to request an mri with a general anaesthetic.. this email was sent 23rd January, I called yesterday for update... no reply to secretary.. Why do I keep having to chase? This will be my 8th MRI.. I have severe depression.. I want to now go to another hospital to see another neurologist as I can't keep fighting.. I have no strength in my mind or body to do this...