"Can't let go of the traumatic labour 5 months on"

After being induced midday everything was going along slowly, slight back pain but nothing more.

Between midnight and 2am pain went from 0 to excruciating just like that. I had no restbite between each contraction and I was on a ward with other patients which was difficult.

I couldn't even stand properly and was sitting on the floor next to my bed begging someone to help me, about three or four times a midwife who was seeing to another patient walked past me without speaking to me, or offering any help at all.

Eventually she asked if I was ok!!!, I begged her and other midwives for an epidural or any pain relief but nobody seemed to be listening to me.

The midwife examined me eventually and said I was 5-6cm dilated, she said she would get me some pain relief as well as another midwife but nothing appeared, I cannot tell you the pain I was in, and it was only when I was standing up and started bleeding, that they suddenly approached me and said we were off to delivery to have the baby.

Things didn't add up, I had just been told I was only 5-6 cm so how come suddenly I was rushed round to delivery.

Once in delivery I was given gas and air but to be honest it didn't even touch the sides. Once my son was born the midwife casually said "the baby was back to back and that is more painful". Literally to have gone through 2-4 hours of horrific pain without any pain relief and to of been ignored whilst in so much distress on the floor, I still feel so let down and unsupported, that I cannot watch anything to do with births on tv, and think about the labour regularly.

I would be absolutely terrified to be induced again, and would seriously prefer a c section, and I know that is not the easy way out.

I would love to read through my notes, as things did not gel well that night between staff, and I felt very alone and let down whilst screaming in agony on the ward floor, only to be ignored over and over again, really Kingston this must not happen again. I am such a reasonable person who doesn't like to cause trouble, but my experience was so disappointing from what I had hoped it would be.

Please listen to us mums, we are not begging for help for no reason, whether it's the middle of the night or not, pain relief has got to be more readily available as without it it is sheer hell.