"Disgusting."

I called the bpass helpline at 6 weeks pregnant. Was seen in clinic at 10 weeks, during a scan 2 empty sacs were seen so we were sent to a hospitial 45 minutes away booked for the next day even though my local hospitial is 10 minutes from the bpass clinic. At the hospitial 3 sacs were found one with a baby 10weeks gestation 2 empty, i told the hospitial again i was coming from bpass and needed to be sent back to contiune. The same day i called my gp who spent 45 minutes on hold to bpass explained the situation and was assured someone would call me back. No one called me both me and my gp called almost daily for almost 5 weeks. Finally i was called back and told the only place i could go was 200 miles away i was told to take my 3 children one who is autistic with me and say it was a "holiday" after refusing i was told i could be sent back to the nhs at a hospitial a 2.5 hour train ride with 3 changes costing £126 for me and my partner. I was also told i was only 5 days over the limit to have been dealt with at the clinic 5 minutes from my home. I bought up the safty of being put to sleep bought round and left bleeding heavily to travel on a train for 2.5 hours if no delays considering the hospitial is central london im sure there will be delays, the woman on the phone told me she isnt medically trained and seems to think travelling that far is fine yet on bpass website it says not to travel for 24 hours after the procedure. So now im left 15+6 weeks pregnant knowing another labour has a high risk of my death left on my own by everyone medically to just go off and have a baby i dont want. Im so disgusted with how ive been treated this has left me suffering serious mental anquish. Im terrified about what is going to happen ans leaving my 3 children with no mother.