"I feel like I'm not supported"

After being told after two major surgeries for ulcerative colitis I would not conceive I caught pregnant, I was put straight under a consultant gynaecologist.

Since being under them I have had regular appointments for growth scans and to discuss care. I feel I have not been supported by them throughout my pregnancy people which I was told would be involved aren't and I am anxious about the birth.

I requested a c section at 36 weeks as there was still nothing in place and all they has to say is negative things about a section which I think would be better for my health.

I am now prettified of having more surgery as all they have done is scare monger about c section, told me a section is the worst decision I could make and when things go wrong it will be my fault.

I have been hospitalised several times throughout my pregnancy due to baby crushing my bowels and all the surgeons and other health care staff have advised a section would be best for both of us. I feel patronised and unsupported as a first time mother and when I voice my concerns I am fobbed off and told "I can prescribe anti depressents for your anxiety" yet  not recognise I am anxious because I am not supported.

They have previously told me a section is not the "city way" and now see the appointments as a waste of time. I have two weeks left till my section and know nothing other than negatives and when I've asked a surgeon about certain risks they have said they are minor and my consult needs to take advise and look into my condition.

This has overall been an aweful experience for me and if I could do it over I wish I had chosen the qmc instead of the city hospital hospital now.