"Made to feel worse"
Posted by D***y
First off I was lied to and told I would be seeing a psychiatrist when I attend only to find out it was a cpn I was seeing instead. The cpn was nice and agreed with the opinion of 2 gps and along with what I know about mental health having worked in a psychiatric respite facility And having lived with this untreated for 15 years that I'm bipolar. That's not news i already knew that. The psychiatrist i finally got to see (after insistence from my gp) was the big smack in the face. They couldn't even pronounce the drug they were prescribing (one that I was already familiar with when I read the name for myself) and says they don't think it's bipolar but it's on the spectrum. That's fine they are the one with the medical degree but they didn't ask me anything relating to my symptoms except for asking me do I want to hurt myself or anyone else. The psychiatrist doesn't acknowledge my anxiety and long term sleep problems, and only focused on the mania and ignored the depression. My anxiety has gotten that bad I've quit one job and almost halfed my hours in my other and I very rarely leave the House and now have panic attacks to Go with the anxiety but now the psychiatrist isn't seeing me for 3 months and still hasn't given me a diagnosis or correct medication combo and I now feel more crazy and suicidal than I did before I asked for help. My moods are change so rapidly from manic to suicidal on a daily basis and my anxiety is controlling and ruining my life but I have nowhere to turn. I finally built up the courage to ask for help and now feel worse than ever like I'm just a burden. This has got to change. Do better.