"No help"

After finally admitting I've been suffering with depression most my life and seeking help For the first time in 15 years. I went gp as I was no longer coping with work avoiding family and friends, destroying my relationship..

At the beginning of self referral it's more about rules than care. The assessor will only call once, they will not leave a message, make sure your there or get kicked off system and start with forms and phone appointments again. I felt the phone assessment was arkward, the assessor seemed to just go thorough questions quickly and didn't feel comfortable with them at all. They weren't sympathetic or helpful. They said it sounded like my partners fault and would I maybe like some counselling, I said yes because it seemed that or nothing. I felt like the assessor didn't wanna deal with me and was trying to palm me off, like they'd rather I'd of said no.

It was a 10 week wait in which time I started antidepressants and was signed off work. I have now finished a course of counselling but I'm still as lost as when I started. My depression is still as bad. my counsellor was very nice but I don't know what was suppose to happen or help.