"very upset and disappointed"

feeling very upset now was feeling very positive until today First saw the consluant back in august 2014 referral from boston was told an ileal conduit would be the way forward. I asked how long I would be waiting for the op 8 to 12 weeks I was told. I needed tests before I they could go ahead. Tests done went on the wating list on October 2014. Then was suspened from the list They was waiting for an anesthestic report the report said I was fit enough for the operation. Went to the appointment today and was told the consluant is on sick leave and will be for a while. I was told that another sugeon could do the operation at this hospital Now I have been transferred to Lincoln I have been told that I am suspened again from the waiting list. I understand that hospital staff get ill but going to yet another hospital means a longer wait for my operation which I am despaerate for . So my quality of life is really bad I have no quality of life and I am still in pain . So now I feel very upset and very disappointed and I don't know how much longer I can cope with my condition I have now been on the waiting list for 5months ,Going to different hospital may mean that I am on another waiting list for 6 months again. So yes I feel very upset and let down.