"Terrible"

I was recently referee to the urgent response unit by the police as I had intentions of killing myself. From the moment I was picked up I was made to feel embarrassed by the man collecting me, he laughed at what I had been doing, throughout the whole assessment I kept saying I was concerned about my safety. That I didn't want to hurt myself but I knew as soon as I went home I would and that I needed protecting in the immediate. Every time he dismissed this and told me the best route for me would be an assessment within four weeks. He told me he wouldn't recommend psychiatric assessment because i wasn't 'quite mad enough', when i reiterated that inside feel safe going home he pointed out my age and suggested i start 'taking some responsibility for myself' and the end of the meeting he said 'cant you just go back to cutting yourself? It's easier for everyone'. I was then left to make my own way home, when I did, I hurt myself in time in the way I had said I knew I would have to and caused myself some considerable damage. I felt failed and ridiculed throughout the experience. Considering the details I what has happened to me recently had been passed on by the police, there was nonsense of sympathy from this man. In a time of complete desperation I was rejected by the people that are meant to protect me.