"Psychology therapy"

Where to begin... I wished upon death everyday not because i wanted to die but i wanted to live so badly but i felt so so heavy, unhappy, lost, alone, vunerable, and sooooo broken. 1 year on since starting therapy i have learned new coping techniques..

My emotional stress and emotional stress i cause. My awareness of myself and my thinking is better. I AM SEEN with eyes and a heart from my therapist that are pure and unjudgemental...nothing is ever too much.. She saved me from myself more times than i can count...

My story is full of abandoment, shame, loss and trauma. Childhood neglect was at the top of the  list as it really is the starting point to everything and i still struggle with alot of memories from that time. I have 3 kids and all i want is for them not to be like me and to have love and the stability that i still crave today... With my therapist i now no im a good mum because i try my best to provide these things to them i parent with love. Cant believe i can type the words out and believe them 😊

i have a sense of self for the first time in my 30 year life still figuring out who i am but with the support from my therapist i know ill get there.. I must remember to be kind to myself to mother the parts of me that need extra love and to accept the shame and start to love those parts of me is essential in my journey... I never thought it was possible.

Honestly to my core i hated my self.. Now i have some love there. Its only since starting my therapy at st lukes hospital in armagh that the healing began i never thought it was possible.. Never ever thought is be getting better 1 step at a time understanding what is going on inside my brain and body because of mental illnesses realllllly helps.

I can say hand on heart this woman i wish i could give her to everyone that felt like me because she is hope in many many forms and thats all i ever wanted and needed i am eternally grateful... Unbelievable what a year of someone who knows what there at can dp to someone severley broken.. I have a good bit to go to be honest life will be a battle forever i feel but my therapist is setting me up for the challenging journey that i no know i can handle