"no crisis like a national mental health crisis"

I really do feel like "crisis" hasn't really been defined properly to the people dealing with the frontline of mental health patients across the country. For example, being fresh out of the hospital after a suicidal episode and being told that I'm not really in a crisis is hardly a good representation of how to speak with a vulnerable person. I was told very sharply that there was no option for home treatment, and that if I wanted to see a psychiatrist I'd have to either see a GP or be sectioned. My GP then tried to refer me into the crisis team and warned me that it might not be a pleasant experience, quoting the person she spoke with as saying: "well if they're in such a crisis why aren't they going to A&E". I could only laugh at this. It was the only way to protect myself when being in the middle of an urgent mental health emergency and having to hear that I was simultaneously too urgent and not urgent enough. I was then contacted by a home treatment team (?) conducting a welfare check, who were a lot kinder with explaining the process. Someone rang today who booked an assessment with a nurse for me. I asked for clarification, whether they were the crisis team or the home treatment team. She was confused, saying that they had been merged and were one and the same team. I'm now far more wary of this team than I was. All I want is to see a psychiatrist and make a treatment plan. All I'm getting is gaslighting from whoever takes these calls, and it's a battle of wills to get through to someone who knows what on earth they do. I'm furious that I'm at a point where I'm having to get to a point of desperation that I'm ready to die before any of these "urgent" healthcare teams will actually do anything to help. I know the NHS is under a huge amount of strain, and mental health services are chronically underfunded. I'd probably have a lot more sympathy and gratitude if I wasn't being spoken to like a toddler. If I end up being failed further don't bother with a funeral, just dump my body on the doorsteps of parliament.