"Living with a child with additional needs"

I've been on the mental health services for a long period of time. I've been to many different services around Sheffield. I first came to Northlands as a teen where I was told I may have BPD or bipolar. Going to different places, I have been told different diagnosis is

For myself since coming back to Northlands this year I was told I have PTSD, no mention of BPD or the bipolar. At this moment in time I am the most stable in my mental health that I have been in many many years. I had a cancer scare which put my life into perspective, and I realised I didn't want to die no more, but I wanted to live, and wanted to be here for my children as they are my main priority.

My mood often dips due to my daughter's additional needs, which yes, it does affect my mental health, but it is something I am living with and working with to help and support my daughter to the best of my abilities. I don't feel I need help now from Northlands, just feel like I have sorted myself out. The Cancer scare that has made a huge impact on my life and made me want to be alive and fight for my children and myself. I am happy that I have managed to sort my own mental health without relying on said services who have been quite inconsistent and let me down including perinatal mental health services.

I was supposed to be under perinatal from a year after my daughter was born, they discharged me after 3 months when I was very low and my daughter was then taken into hospital with issues with her brain. I tried to contact mental health services with no response, I feel very let down and discouraged about the lack of support available. Hopefully in the future, I can manage my mental health by myself as I do not feel I need supporting anymore, other than support with my daughter.

Talking about the past makes it all fresh in my head and makes me feel like I'm back there, that is not what I want. I don't want to think about the past and talk about it to every professional I Encounter, I want to live for now and the future, not living in the past, and going over things from the past, which makes it really difficult to live the present. I have my own grounding techniques and have ways in which I can bring myself out of a low mood by taking some well need a time for myself whether that be cleaning excessively or spending a few extra hours in bed.