"Left extremely vulnerable"

I moved to Kensington and Chelsea area at the end of January, and was discharged from my previous community mental health hub at the end of April once my therapy sessions ended. 

Unfortunately this has now resulted in me being in receipt of absolutely zero support for the last 4 and a half months, in which time my mental health health has been left to significantly worsen along with increasing suicidal thoughts. 

Although I had an assessment with the South Kensington team in July, unfortunately it became clear to me after the assessment that the outcome had seemingly already been pre-decided before the assessment had taken place, rendering the assessment worthless in my opinion. It seems to me that the assessment was carried out purely for performative purposes, looking on paper as though something was being done, when in reality there seemed to be little interest or intention whatsoever in helping me. They did nothing. I was simply left a dreadful website, which mainly just listed private therapy providers (none of which I can afford) along with other absolutely useless suggestions for services that I have found abysmal in the past.

My GP has put in several referrals even since the assessment, but the South Kensington team turn down every single referral falsely claiming there is 'no change in presentation'. It seems that they will continue to refuse all and every referral, perhaps resulting in breaking my will to continue instead of offering any support.

Unfortunately I don't believe I was ever going to be assessed with an open mind, I am sure the outcome was already decided before the appointment had even taken place. After which time they simply said to go away and try again in 3 months. I am becoming increasingly suicidal by the day and my mental state has significantly worsened and severely deteriorated. I don't have any kind of support network after years of restrictions. This makes the lack of help and support even more terrifying, and I spend my days feeling extremely frightened, vulnerable, and in floods of tears daily. 

It's often said that these type of services aim to support people to avoid hospital admissions. But at the rate it's going it's extremely likely I would end up as an inpatient again, since no support whatsoever has been offered. If someone with severe suicidal thoughts is left without support in the community with no intervention then it only ends up creating more burden on the NHS when they are so unable to cope alone that they end up back in hospital. 

I don't want to make a complaint, as that is a totally pointless exercise. neither do I want another meaningless generic standardised response from PALS as a reply to me sharing my experience. Because for me we are way past that now. 

I want this to be seen by all of the staff at the South Kensington and Chelsea mental health team. This isn't going to go away.