"Abandoned by NHS Ayrshire and Arran."

I was referred to a colorectal surgeon in 2019. My appointment eventually came through and I had a clinic appointment with my surgeon in October 2020 (over a year from referral). 

From this appointment they told me I needed a colonoscopy and EUA under general anaesthetic along with an anorectal manometry test. They also said I was to be referred to a specialist in Glasgow afterwards to discuss the possibility of sacral nerve stimulation surgery.

It is now March 2021 and I am now triggering for management to step in and have a meeting with me about my sickness absence. I can barely leave the house to to the unpredictability of my bowel. I am in pain and taking way more Imodium and buscopan than I should. I have also had bouts of bleeding from the bowel.

I therefore contacted my surgeons secretary to ask for help as my symptoms had worsened. They told me that neither my surgeon nor anyone else was available at the moment. So I have just been left.  Being a staff member in the NHS I have also contacted occupational health and all they could really do was suggest my manager to take me off night shifts until I get some help. 

I also have a pre cancerous lesion that has changed and my surgeon wants to cut it out ..this will also be under general anaesthetic so when will I get that done? I have all sorts of other strange symptoms going on and I am starting to really worry. It is making me anxious and really unwell. I have no one to help me I don't know where else to try for help about this. 

I struggle every day but I go to work and I have a FFP3 mask etc on for hours and hours when patients are having GA's. Why cant main theatres do the same? All I keep hearing is "my surgery isn't urgent" Well its diagnostic so how do you know if its urgent or not. I could have something really serious going on inside my bowel that's causing all these symptoms and my life is being ruined by it so to me it is very urgent.