"Finding Me"

Finding me!

The day I reached out had been a long time coming, I’d become a broken box of pieces I didn’t see me any more the picture of my life & who I was, was missing. I had the most difficult time focusing on my day to day living and the thoughts of me not being here was the best outcome for myself and my family, until I picked up the phone and asked for help.

My statement I made that day all about me was the most difficult thing I had to do I’d say the hardest part was putting into words to someone else what was going on in my head, but it just came spilling out..with the help of my counsellor and the way he put into words that I could understand I begun to work through the techniques he gave me to get back to finding me.

I looked forward to his phone call every Wednesday to tell him my progress and as the weeks went on I felt I could see the picture beginning to look a whole lot better, I still had the dark days but I could handle them with just a different attitude then before.

When I look back at me in those crazy days I began to see how irrational I was and in my head I was right, it was everyone else that was wrong, which pushed me over the top, the task from my counsellor was different every week once I’d got the hang of them by putting them into practice I found my copping mechanism was back, happy days!

5 weeks on and it was time for me to hear the statement I had made the first day, I didn’t recognise it I was shocked to think I had said the things I had said & the way I felt I asked him to repeat them again saying I think your reading the wrong person’s statement. I’m glad I picked up the phone that day, Adam helped me so much to see things more logically, if I hadn’t made the call I’m sure it would be such a different picture to look at.