"Change Grow Live"

I am finally stopping drugs after a long time of being unable to stop, however I feel it has been made difficult because of the way I look, the way I look is very difficult for people to process, so I get a lot of unkindness.

I am feeling worse now because of all the good reviews, my script has frequently been messed up. I know this never happens to anyone else, and I'm sure its all because of the way I look, that's why it took me so long to finally give up drugs, for a long time I wanted to die because my appearance is revolting even to people who work in a drug and alcohol service!

That made me realise how little hope I have, but now I am coming to terms with it and am now making an effort. It is frightening and disheartening when people who work in the care profession cannot handle the way I look, it made me just want to die, I used to just hope the drugs would kill me. Now I have stopped, since lock down I lapsed once.