"Woodlands Resource Centre Falkirk"

I was referred to Woodlands Resource Centre in the depths of despair, suicidal, wasn’t leaving my bed, hadn’t eaten or drank in 48 hours. What little hope I had, I put it in their ability to offer me a lifeline. A meeting was arranged via Zoom with 2 x CPN’s a few days after I reached out. Afterward, they said they would -probably feed back around Tuesday next week. It seemed like such a long time to hold on, but I gripped onto life and tried to breath my way through the next 5 days, using “Tuesday” as my safety net. 

Tuesday comes and goes. I phone reception and ask to speak to one of the CPN’s. They're not at her desk but I leave a message advising i’d called. Wednesday - still nothing so I call back at 4pm and ask to speak to the same CPN. This time I get through and they tell me something like -No, we were just going to feed back on Tuesday so I probably wouldn’t call you till today. When was that going to be? Midnight?

Already feeling that my crisis was insignificant, enough that I could be left a week after writing my suicide note and trying to dehydrate myself, and enough that there was no rush to contact me to follow-up, the CPN proceeds to advise that they can give me the decision now, sounding like -hey, may aswell, since you’re already on the phone. So this decision? I have BPD and GAD and have just had a mental breakdown and desperately need my  medication looked at so you would think this might have been considered?

No, the CPN asked me whether i’ve tried Beating the Blues or Decider Skills online. I went emotionally to the depths of Hell and they ask me if I’ve tried an online mood adjuster. Oh and they’re hoping to refer me to a Primary Care Psychologist but maybe can’t because I’m already seeing a counsellor, who I explained is merely a befriender. Basically -yeah, that’s all we can give you - might phone next week - bye.  It feels from my experience that deaths could be averted if they showed they care.