"Long wait but worth waiting for... "
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I feel very fortunate to have been given the opportunity to work with my therapist. I felt held, heard and understood which allowed for a genuine counsellor/client relationship built on mutual trust and respect. We developed a great connection which helped me to feel safe enough to explore my issues, face my anxieties and work through them whilst feeling safe and supported. My therapist was quite stern at times which was always in my best interests and still done with great patience, kindness and empathy. I will always be grateful for this as it encouraged me to keep going even through my darkest moments when I felt like running away. I can see now that with her support I found the strength to really face my demons and at times it was an incredible challenge but through hard work and a deeper understanding of myself and my issues it was well worth the effort as it has led to a much calmer place in my mind and body...I feel stronger and much more at ease... Guess you really do reap what you sow!
The start of each session involved me being given choices plus the opportunity to add ideas on how the sessions may go, this was good as it created a sense of balance, equalness between my therapist and I, plus I never once felt I was being forced to do anything against my wish. Homework was given which was great as it encouraged me to keep working on myself between sessions.
These 12 weeks have led me to a place where I can finally see a brighter future. I'm under no illusion that all is completely perfect in my life now, there is still work to be done, however the path ahead is clearer as I've learned how to self soothe rather than rely on others for reassurance when I'm feeling anxious, therefore I'm seeing new perspectives when things feel tough like there's no way out... because there always is. Also, I feel it is very important to realize that when therapy ends the work should not. I'm still using all the exercises practiced, worksheets given, and notes taken whenever I feel necessary. Some of the tools I've been given are now part of my daily regime and really help me to ditch not so helpful habits and introduce new and healthier ones... the beauty of self awareness and acceptance!
I have much and gratitude respect towards NHS Talking Therapies and to my wonderful therapist Ilknur. Thank you so much for your help support.