"A lifetime of depression cannot be helped in eight hours"

I was referred for psychodynamic therapy. I saw a therapist once a week for one hour. We discussed my issues and looked into what might be causing them. I opened up long buried feelings. Admitted things I have never admitted before. Just as I started to feel I might understand the route of my problems the course ended.

I was left to face the world more exposed and vulnerable than ever. I rang to say I wasn’t coping. Despite them saying I could always refer myself for further help I was told it hadn’t been long enough since my last session. I feel helpless. Yes I can see my GP. Who can prescribe tablets or refer me to someone with a waiting list. I know the tablets don’t work, I’ve already been down that route. I don’t have the strength to start again with a different therapist. Surely these mental health experts know the torture they put you through remember things and feelings you’d rather forget. Why do they think starting again with a different therapist is in anyway a reasonable solution.

If I could change the past, then when they offered me eight hours help, I wouldn’t take it. A lifetime of depression cannot be helped in eight hours. I’m so sad the therapy stopped I learned so much just not enough. It’s like someone sent me an inflatable life raft and then burst it as soon as I climbed in.