"Awful "

I came into A and E after taking an overdose due to the way I had be been feeling and struggle. I was treated like an animal. Dirty looks from staff, staff weren’t bothered to care for me. There was a male working who needed to take my blood I sat their and said please wait a moment before I don’t feel great as not amazing with needles and asked if I could have my partner from the waiting room to come comfort me. He then shouted “ so your refusing a blood test” for other staff to hear. This is a complete lie. I was nervous and in a pretty bad state. I understand it can be seen as “ time wasting” In the NHS however at the time I felt disgusted with myself as it was and was so upset with myself and feeling so low I was made then to feel even worse I honestly felt worthless. A month or two later the same thing happened I was in hospital it was the same staff on this shift unfortunately and yet again received funny looks and just awful treatment. I understand I’m not a priority and I don’t expect someone to be with me being nice as anything however funny looks from staff and then comments while in the state I am is not nice. I had to lie and say I go confused with my timings. The staff yet again successfully made me feel worthless. I am so disappointed in the staff on the shift. However I’m glad this happened to me and no body eles as I would of worried how the person would of left feeling. I feel like these staff don’t understand mental health and I never used to either however since suffering I have found it is so horrible thing to have. I appreciate the NHS and everything they do however these certain staff this night made be feel horrible.