"Trying to get an assessment"

I’m currently awaiting a date for an ESA tribunal. I have been on the mental health radar for a long time now. I haven’t spoken to a psychologist in four years and in that time I’ve lost four members of my immediate family, my son has been diagnosed with autism and I feel these experiences have affected me. A clinical psychologist, when looking at the family history, asked if I had ever thought that I was autistic. I provided a letter to my doctor detailing why I thought I should be put forward for assessment, my doctor agreed and submitted a request. Unknown to me this went no further as I have found out that a member of mental health staff who hasn’t spoken to me in years stated that they didn’t think it was necessary. 

I have had several traumatic experiences throughout my life, yet I’m not allowed to be assessed for CPTSD. 

I have been signed off with depression from every job I’ve ever had. In my last job I was asked why I was different from every one else. I struggle with concentration and focus when I’m stressed which can get so bad that I can’t hear people talking when they are standing next to me, can’t string a sentence together, stare in to the distance etc.

I think it is more than reasonable that I be at least be assessed again.

I feel I could be a poster for everything that is wrong with a failing health system but I really really need help right now. DWP are making my life hell and I’m having to jump through more hoops than I can handle.