"Cancelled operations.."

I had lung cancer two years ago and recently they discovered a spot on my lung which needs to be removed.  I went to my pre-assessment appointment and then travelled the 60 miles again with my 75 year old husband for the actual operation.  My room was like a prison cell, the bed was like a table, thin sheets only and damp flat pillows, so uncomfortable.  My husband had booked into the lodge for the time and we put our pet dog into kennels.

The next morning the nurse asked me to shower and to put on the stockings for surgery and change into my nightdress which I did.  When I came out of the shower room the bed had been remade so I couldn't use it, I had no choice but to sit in the uncomfortable hair.  It was 7.30 am.  About ten people came in and out to see me, as they do, explaining the procedure and anaesthetic etc.  Then the surgeon and a nurse came in and told me I had to go home there was no bed available for me so they could not operate.

I am 73, my husband is 75 this was the first time in our married life we had spent the night apart.  It was stressful and upsetting.  We had paid £100 for the lodge and £35 for the kennels plus fuel money.  It isn't just about the cost though and I am not one to complain but this was an awful time.  We couldn't drive home immediately as I saw my husband was too upset to drive and I didn't want him to have a motor accident.

This has happened again, I was admitted, had x-rays which was rushed and when I asked for help I was made to feel like a child, no kindness was shown, no direction, instruction or empathy.  I had to do a lung breathing test which I had recently passed 100% at my own hospital.  Why don't they share this information? But I was sent home again due to bed shortage.

I am being admitted again this week and am hoping it is a case of third time lucky.   

My surgeon is also frustrated as he feels he cannot do his job due to the cuts and lack of beds.

As i said i don't like to complain at all but this is just so frustrating, upsetting and stressful waiting, travelling and not knowing when or if my operation will be.