"Mental health services NSFT"

I spent 4 years trying to get therapy and support for trauma.

After being messed about for a 1 year i got to see CMHT. Who promised support and help. None of thier promises came true .I felt ignored for months, failed to do referrals and didn't turn up to appointments, then i got letters complaining i didn't turn up to appointments to places and times i never heard about. finally complained about them. They apologise to me for losing my contact information (I think this was not true) and they made me appointment to see a psychiatrist and there, in an 15 min late appointment where the nurse didn't turn up, i refused to take antidepressants (im not depressed) and asked for trauma based therapy i was told ok and it would take 6 months.

6 months later i contacted them to find out the referral was never made and it felt like it was behind my back that they gave me a diagnosis of a Personality Disorder (PD). I believe this is because i made a complaint and refused Anti Depressant drugs. After another upheld complaint I waited 2 years for therapy that never happened.

I went private and accessed short term counselling through GP  I couldn't afford a Dr for a diagnosis but the therapist were 100% sure i have complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Attention Deficit Disorder. I can't delete PD from my records.

The NHS refused my ADHD referral from my GP  (10 pages of evidence) because they said-our clinic can't treat people with anxiety.  Who has ADHD and no anxiety??? They sent an 2 sentence email to my GP after months and my GP phoning them.

I complained yet i have received 4 monthly letters telling me my complaint will be delayed by 1 month every month. My GP also referred me to Autism service and they said they think i have autism and they referred me to the adhd clinic and was refused and referred me for full autism assessment with 4 to 5 year waiting time. 

This feels like a barbaric service 

That turned trauma in to more trauma. I can't work or function and I feel that the  NHS has denied me drugs and thearpy, i offered to help pay using my welfare payments. It feels like there has been 10 years lost. NHS refused to accept a private diagnosis of ADHD and i couldn't afford the drug treatment at £3000/yr privately.

I want to work... i want a life before Im too old, and I feel like the NHS are still hurting me.