"A massive waiting list"

I am currently no doubt on a massive waiting list for Autism Assessment and I want to highlight the effect this is having on my life.

Last year was the most horrific of my entire life. I lost both my parents in dreadful circumstances both of which generated complaints, one of which is still ongoing, as is the stress that watching the circumstances of these cases.

My son was diagnosed with Autism at the end of this same year. 

I recently had to attend a health assessment in Edinburgh and am still awaiting the outcome. I have suffered from depression most of my life. I also have OCD and PTSD. Most of my current PTSD issues relate to watching my parents deaths play out and the awful circumstances of both.

I am particularly struggling right now and my finances are getting in a mess. Although I understand that diagnosis would not be of any financial benefit I really need assessment for many other reasons. The Housing Association that I was with made my life hell and right now the local council also say that I owe them money.

When I am under excessive pressure like I am right now I find it extremely difficult to concentrate. It is almost like a form of mental blindness due to the complete lack of focus and fog in your mind.

I ask for help all the time but just like my assessment I get added to a list where I’m likely to get an appt on 12th of never. Meantime I’m scared that because no-one understands why I react in certain ways I’m more likely to get persecuted than protected. 

I have never had to deal with as much stress and grief as has been thrown at me over the last three years and it does affect how I deal with other issues.