Whenever I reached the end of my tether I reached for counselling, It always helped but only for a short while. This time I felt worse than ever.
It was just before Christmas, I had financial issues, marriage issues a falling out with my son and I had no patience left for anyone. Road rage was a release but the guilt after any sort of outburst was overwhelming, in the end I 'knew' the world would be a better place without me in it so I took an overdose.
48 hours later I woke up with every negative emotion and no recollection of those last two days.
That was the turning point for me I think, that was the moment when I realised that my previous efforts hadn't been enough.
I approached inclusion (again) and asked for more help which came in the form of Mark. He started by helping me to accept that counselling isn't the solution. I know that sounds a bit crazy but hear me out. Counselling is more like a piece of equipment, a tool, something you can use to achieve your goal or create your solution. Just like gym equipment to lose weight or a handsaw to create some shelves you can't just pick it up and do it well it takes practise, lots of it!
Six months and lots and lots and lots of practise (still practicing) later and I've learned a new skill called acceptance. To anyone reading my blabber and wondering whether any sort of therapy is worth it I promise you it is, I also guarantee it is not easy and there is a lot of hard work involved.
Finally I would like to offer you a prayer. May you be granted the serenity to accept the things you cannot change,
Courage to change the things you can,
And wisdom to know the difference.
"Hopelessness"
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