"A&E and Mental Health"

I have had to attend A&E several times in recent weeks and months for mental health reasons, and have been made to feel like I am wasting their time, beneath contempt and utterly worthless. I have been turned away with no help, feeling desperate. It seems to me that staff clearly think -oh not her again, she always does this, she'll be fine, just an attention-seeker. I have wandered the streets feeling utterly desperate and unsafe to go home following attending, or I have gone home and self-harmed. I think that they have blacklisted me.

After a serious overdose, the psychiatric liaison nurse seemed to show no concern, and refused to do anything although I begged to be admitted to hospital. I self-harmed and they just walked away. They then said I was being discharged due to 'my behaviour' and a (physical health) nurse agreed and threatened to call security. It was only because other staff intervened that I was given a bed for that night. I told the doctor in the morning I didn't feel safe and he appeared utterly disinterested and just said liaison had said I was discharged. I went home incredibly distressed.

After another overdose I was told -this is just chronic and I was *hand gesture* indicating about in the middle of a path to recovery. I felt at rock bottom. I still do