"I wish I never had OCD"

I have OCD, I wish I never had it because it's ruined my life. I have to switch lights on and off, sometimes for an hour. It's horrible and ruins my life but I'm scared that if I don't do it, my family will be hurt.

I am treated by a local doctor and he has helped me a lot. I don't always understand what's happening to me but he talks me through it and it always feels like he has lots of time for me. When I’m in crisis, I can call the crisis team and they talk to me and help me through it.