"Support through incredibly traumatic times"

I had grown up with a physical abusive dad who constantly beat me and my mum and controlled everything. I didn't leave home until my late 30s to protect my mum but when I left the abuse started again I called my dad on the phone and told him enough was enough and I didn't want anything more do do with him a few days passed and no one had heard from him so I went to his house and found he'd took his own life.

I've been living with guilt and shame ever since and tried taking my own life and thought about other ways to end my life. I struggle with sleep as I constantly have nightmares and see flashbacks. I don't no if I will ever get over it as ever day in life is a struggle. 

I've been supported through the Conditions Management Programme and wanted to thank both Catherine and Tina as I'm not sure I'd be here if it wasn't for them.