"A miscarriage"

I had a miscarriage a year ago, it's taken me a long time to come to terms with what happened due to my experience.

I was brought in by ambulance and waited for a bed in A and E. When on the trolley I bled all over myself, the bed and the floor. I was checked on once by a nurse for my blood pressure and never seen again by anyone else. I sat in my own blood-soaked pyjama bottoms for over 5 hours. I also walked myself to the toilet where I bled all over the floor and the bathroom looked like a scene from psycho. Not one person noticed.

When it came to hand over time, the nurses went one by one around stream 2 describing the patients, as it's just a miscarriage, and that I shouldn't even be here, and should be in ward 36 but I had not been taken yet. I'm working in healthcare myself and I was utterly appalled by what they said about me.

I was eventually told I'd be going to ward 36. They got a porter's chair and tried to take me up on it, I refused. I was seen through, fainting every time I sat up right, I'd lost over a litre of blood. The nurse sighed and said fine and finally approved to take me on the trolley, I was handed my new chart in an envelope and sent up on my own.

When I got to the ward, I sat in a room with a tv. Every 10 minutes I was up to the toilet bleeding profusely. I had no water in 6 hours, no painkillers, no companion. Just left. I ended up fainting and falling headfirst into a wall, lots of people came rushing in and pulled me by the arms to sit me up, I passed out again as one of the healthcare workers told me to stop doing that, and that I need to get up.

Finally get seen by a Dr, it's around 1am bearing in mind it was 4pm when I got to A and E. The doctor got me on the bed to have a look at my miscarriage and told me they can see the placenta of my baby stuck and needs to get it all out, no pain relief, just scraping my cervix. I heard it hit the ground. I ended up needing surgery and the next day I asked the nurse repeatedly for pain relief, I never got it.

To this day I think back to that day and think I'm appalled by these people who absolutely failed me basic care and I'm ashamed to say I'm also working in healthcare, because if they did this to me, I wonder how they treat their other patients. I lost my baby and I still grieve over that day I nearly died and no one cared.