"Return to normality after third cancer diagnosis"

I may not have fully identified all the departments nurses, doctors and ancillary staff who have helped me on my journey , for that I apologise. I know I owe a great amount of thanks to you all.

Maggie’s, who I mentioned very briefly on my cancer story, I owe a lot . Especially the cancer survivors who were present on my visits. The feeling of being in a safe space ,allowed me to communicate my dreads, feelings and fears with people who understood and comforted me. 

I cried going to my first meeting, stopping the car on route. I cried after meeting the other group members, then cried as I told my story. Feeling sorry for myself, why me, why again, what have I done wrong. One group member handed me tissues , one rubbed my back, whilst another politely told me to stop apologising. I think it was politely. Telling me they knew my feelings, my fears, my despair. That was the start of my recovery . I send them all , my deepest thanks.

I am now in a far better space all thanks to Maggie’s and those friends I made there. I would never have looked for help ,without that one nurse who realised I was down, helpless and lost. Maggie’s counsellors and the members did the rest . Honesty was the catalyst among the members. Support, comfort and sharing (only if you want, no pressure to share) is in abundance. family and friends continue this support. Now I look forward to a long life ,after surgery for prostate cancer, remembering the help I have received .