"Not being understood"

It could be a misunderstanding at the gynaecology department at Harrogate hospital. I am still looking for answers to many things with me, a few years ago I started feeling worse and worse, I have a gynecological problem. I mean, I just had it. Because I had a hysterectomy not long ago. But I had it for at least 5 years. I had a doctor who operated on me 2 years ago and said he didn't see any problems. The family doctor and several doctors at the hospital constantly referred me to a gynecologist because they only found that one disease important. But the gynecologist didn't think so. I was so sick that I could only work 6 hours a day at work. But that seemed like a lot.

The wait was also quite a long time, I waited almost a year for the hysterectomy. And I feel like they looked at me like I was completely crazy. And in between, similar diseases happened in my family. That is, the same disease that I had. Like my two daughters, they were diagnosed with adenomyosis at a gynaecologist and they also had cysts. And I didn't dare to tell them what happened because they still looked at me like I was completely stupid.

My mental health, my ability to work, everything was lost, my relationship is in ruins. I will never be able to share that anymore. Everything fell apart. But now maybe I will regain my physical ability, hopefully. The only problem is that I can't understand why all this happened to me. I would like to get an answer to this. I didn't want to be sick, my children also inherited this disease. And I feel like they should know this because I didn't choose it to be this way. I am still very bad, I don't even know if I will recover mentally or what will happen. This happened in Harrogate hospital. I'm not complaining because I don't want to, I just can't understand a lot of things. They kept knocking me back but the problem was always gynecology. And I couldn't stand it in silence while I was already given morphine and painkillers for nerve pain. I lived on painkillers for 5 years and didn't have to use painkillers anymore. This could also have been a major problem, I don't know.

When the hysterectomy finally happened and it feels like it's better, somehow it doesn't hurt like it has in recent years. I don't know but it's very strange. It's true that the operation was early October. I don't know but it seems like it's better. There was also a good thing about the obstetrics department at Harrogate Hospital, my stay there was great, the nurses and the staff were calm, funny and kind at the same time. Thank you very much to them. 🥰

But if someone doesn't understand that my daughters are only 21 and the other is 25 and they have the same disease as me. I am older and have only been very sick for 5 years. I had a lot of gynaecological problems before,  but since I tied myself up like that for at least 4 years, I didn't want to acknowledge that there was a problem, because you can live with this disease. Some people have no symptoms at all. Adenomyosis doesn't cause the same symptoms in all women. But for me, the last 5 or 6 years were a disaster. I already went to therapy, I didn't want to live either. I still have panic attacks to this day. I often wondered why I had to suffer, why I became addicted to medication, nothing made sense. I hope this is somehow good. My workplace fought hard so that I wouldn't be left out of work, they helped me a lot. Many of my friends have been very appreciative, even though I've been sick and haven't worked much in the past few months. There are positive things too. I just had a hard time noticing it.