"Staff Judgement of Suicide / Self Harm"

Went into triage and the nurse did not even look at me. They went through the motions and asked what happened. When I told them, they asked if I was trying to kill myself, really abruptly and out of nowhere. I felt they were so judgemental, instead of helping they acted as though I was an inconvenience. I shut down and did not want to speak to them anymore so I just muttered. I barely got seen and when I did the staff I saw were acting rudely and judgemental to the fact this was a “self inflicted” illness. I did not get seen to, even when going into abnormal heart rhythms.

I moved up to the ward where the nurses were absolutely lovely and attentive, especially the student nurse who took the time and care to look after every individual patient, she was exceptional.

However, from going in at 10pm I did not get to see a psychiatrist until 4pm, even though I was promised that I would be seen before 3pm and this was just due to them “losing me” in their system. When I did get to see a psychiatrist it turned out to be a mental health nurse, not a psychiatrist and they did not ask any personal questions, just checking off boxes on their list with no care. I did not want to speak to them after this whole ordeal and just tried to go home as soon as possible.

After this experience I have had to deal with anxiety about going back to healthcare professionals as I am scared they will judge and avoid caring for me due to my mental health issues. I have lost trust in the NHS system after this experience.