"The voice of immediate clarity"

I lost the job I loved of 23 years and I set off (what my therapist called anxiety). I felt desperate, I have never felt such bereavement in my life to lose the job I love. Not suffered any heartbreaks before, I married my first boyfriend so don’t know what it was like to have my heart broken…I would say, I lived a blessed life until I was hit with this trauma. Plus going through menopause. So emotions were coming at me from everywhere.

I called my GP and she told me about Thurrock Inclusion, I had to get help over these dark thoughts that kept popping up. I felt I let my family down. Though my son said, it’s not your fault mum, it’s God’s plan. I hugged him and cried and told him how much I love him and grateful to have his support. I have many friends but I soon realised the real friends, they were standing by me through thick and thin. I can reflect now how lucky I am to have the very best friends and I am grateful to them forever.

I started taking weekly calls with Qandeel, her soft voice was the voice of immediate clarity to me as well as being my sounding board. Qandeel helped me so much…every week for about 3 months. Through her advice on worry time, I synched it with my daily prayers. My mind saw clarity and my heart filled with gratitude, I was able to rise above and get myself back.

Now all I feel is blessing once more. My son is right, it’s God’s plan. I am so happy I am off the hamster wheel I was on. I can look forward and enjoy life and spend more time with family. I don’t need much, I cut down on my costs and I feel so free to be rotating a few clothes over and over again…I put on weight during my dark moments but I am back to getting fit again. I have been listening to self help books and implementing what I learn. Now I reset daily. Thank you Thurrock Inclusion for your help and support, I am very grateful 🙏🏽