"Sympathetic and listened to my situation"

I left my job of many years for another position at another company.  They insisted it was for long term and secure.  A few weeks later they decided that my role was no longer required.  I was absolutely devastated, for the first time in my adult life I had no income coming in.  I had no savings.  

I was arrogant when they told me, thinking it would only take me a couple of weeks to find something.  I had interviews but no success in gaining the roles I applied for.  I was applying for like 15 jobs a day and the rejections kept coming in.  I became deeply depressed, when one day I got yet another rejection and I think it was the final straw.  I was fed up of the rejection and I saw no future.  I felt suicidal. I called the Samaritans but I could hardly hear her due to her background noise.  I had a total breakdown.  

My wife as soon as she saw me like I was, called the crisis team.  The next day they came and they was absolutely fantastic.  They was sympathetic and listened to my situation.  They organised a plan to get out of the mess I was in.  I stuck to what they asked me to do, and I felt proud because the depression for the first time in my life made me feel extremely vulnerable. 

The crisis team helped me through all this.  They made me a stronger dose of my anti depressants and gave me something to sleep. After having a few full night undisturbed sleep, I was slowly feeling a bit more positive.  In my head all I heard was enjoy the ride, but I couldn't.

I was making sure that I looked after myself and made sure that I was feeling more positive and more grounded about myself. The crisis team was fantastic in encouraging me on this.  They organised somebody to come and help me apply for benefits to help me with money.  They also organised talking therapy for me. 

They stayed with me for approx 2 weeks but was great for me.

Now I start a job next week and I am feeling more positive about myself.  I am making sure that I am never in this position ever again in regards to my mental health and make sure that I deal with my childhood issues head on.