"Traumatic birth experiences in Leeds"

I have been pregnant 5 times. First time induced hospital. Was made to lay down on bed throughout, with no freedom to move. The failed inducement led to a long labour. 2nd baby lost at 21 weeks. Told at my scan that, what was clearly a foetus, was only a "blood clot" (to save me pain?). Was promised would find out sex, and why baby died; went back 6 weeks later and was told they had not bothered to do this. Told that "miscarriages are common", and to go away and have another baby. I was totally fraught that they made false promises. 3rd baby was home birth in 4 hours. Healthy 10lb baby from lovely home birth. 4th baby I was made to have at hospital, as had slight staining in waters, which is common in late babies apparently (even though their monitoring showed baby was 100% fine). So left home 5 cms dilated and regular contractions to hospital. I was forced to lay down in a bed again (like my 1st). I was induced, as labour had stopped - no surprise there with stress of being in hospital. However, inducement went wrong, they over stimulated my uterus and as a result ended up with my longest labour and ventouse. This resulted in large cut, trauma and as a consequence could not have a sex life for 6 months after. Yet my last birth had been a quick wonderful home birth. I feel very resentful for hospital midwives, who coerced me into going to hospital; they quite clearly did not support home births. 5th baby – I vowed, would only go to hospital if something wrong with baby. However, after a normal healthy pregnancy as I was "late" according to their dates, despite me telling them they were wrong! I conceived this baby when I started having sex again after 4th baby, so knew when baby conceived. My midwife told me "hospital will use their powers" if I did not go into hospital to be induced. I asked for a C section, as I could not go through long painful hard labour and failed inducement again. Inducement clearly did not work for me, but I was refused a c section and home birth, despite my worries and fears. Hospital scanned me and told me I was having a 10 and half pound baby again, I told them that this baby was my smallest and indeed my measurements fundal height supported this - but the hospital were blinkered. They say that they support home births, but really don’t!. I was aghast that my midwife was bullying me and clearly happy to have me forced into hospital and induced against my will. This was despite scans showing baby was fine - just because, according to their dates, I was 2 weeks late. However, I knew exactly when conceived, I also knew that baby was not 10lb. Happily, I went into labour naturally and because I was scared of midwives, I laboured alone and my husband delivered our healthy 8lb little girl - not the huge baby they told me i was having. A community midwife (a man) came to my home. He was vile - telling me to "open my lips" so he could check me. I felt like I was in a dirty porn flick - they do have an official name - labia! Despite arriving an hour after my birth at home, he wrote patient declined skin-to-skin contact with baby. I actually held for an whole entire hour without her being whisked away as in hospital environment. He wrote this because I did not want to breast feed in front of him (he was a man and had already made me feel uncomfortable with his "lips" remark). He wrote in his notes that my baby passed meconium at birth, this was not true - he had not even been there at delivery. The final insult was the paramedics had put my placenta in a bucket, which he could not open, so he wrote in my notes "placenta whole and complete at delivery" 2 days later I passed a piece of placenta the size of my babies head and, because he had given me an injection that makes your uterus shut down, he actually put my life in danger - I was lucky not to be poisoned by the remaining placenta in my womb.