"Left feeling worse"

I didn’t bother returning for a 3rd session. As I couldn’t bare to sit there and left feeling worse than I did when I went in. 

The person who saw me didn't seem to care. Looked bored, detached, and like the whole appointment was just a tick box exercise. I did not find the “service” personable in any way.

On my discharge letter, it states “the support I received”

It states we covered goals of distress tolerance and crisis survival… did we?? Because the only thing I remember is being asked the generic list of questions I’m asked by every health professional I come into contact with. Mainly about if I’m going to kill myself or not… and we talked about good old grounding, “uses your 5 senses” blah, blah, blah. The same old stuff that I could have looked up on Google.

I specifically said I need to talk to someone about what’s happened in my life. There’s only so much CBT a person can take. I need to talk, to be listened to, to feel heard!

It’s a pointless service, waste of my time and national insurance. I felt more suicidal after these appointments than I did before I went in because I left feeling like the staff member didn’t understand me, didn’t want to, and literally didn’t care.