"No one believes me"

I was told at Queen Elizabeth hospital I was being sent to an adult Psych ward - I was 14 at the time. I was so scared and didn't know what to expect, but when I got put on ward 20 all the nursing staff were so nice.

I was on a short time detention order for 28 days. In the end I was there for like 1 month and a bit, and the staff helped me feel better, more comfortable in a adults ward but the one thing that I didn't agree on was them doing hold when it was unnecessary and also telling me to leave the toilet door open a bit. Don't get me wrong know it's for safety, but it's uncomfortable and that and the hold seemed so unnecessary.

Half way through my time at Hairmyres I was getting worse but couldn't talk to the nurses and doctors about it. All of them thought I was fine when I was not, I was at my breaking point. I was breaking down in tears when my brother and foster Carer came up, cause of how they started being rude, and how stressful and horrible it was for a child to be in an adult ward. At one point they took everything out my room, and were giving me meds without explaining what they were doing to me.

But I have to say a big thanks to one nurse from ward 20 in Hairmyres. She was the best nurse in there, she was understanding and tried her best to understand. Honestly couldn't of dealt way that place if it wasn't for her she got be through so much and I could talk to her about anything.

I later got moved to Skye House kids psych ward and was in there for 3 months, then got put into kids home. I am now still getting moved about and still in and out of hospital, all cause the doctors didn't listen to me and told me I wasn't at risk when I was in Hairmyres.

As soon as I left Hairmyres and Skye House I got section 3 under the mental health act. I'm 15 now, still fighting to stay alive and getting sectioned yet again. Mental health struggles are a silent killer, it kills you inside, honestly it's so draining.

I just wish the doctors at Hairmyres had believed me, they could of saved me when they had the chance to, but they didn't and still to this day no one believes me. It's horrible.