"I felt ashamed and traumatised at the same time"

I'm on a 2 wk referral for a biopsy and to see the severity of my left ovary being stuck to the uterus wall. When they called to book me in, I was simply advised to take two paracetamol and an ibuprofen. I asked about a GA, but they told me that'll delay the 2 week referral as I'd have to have a pre-op appointment and meeting with the consultant. I felt pressured and scared because they said the hysteroscopy was referred as urgent. 

On the day, I did as advised and after a short chat with pictures of the procedure and being told I'd feel some slight pressure and cramping they proceeded. Well, I thought the natural birth was torture! Oh how I was wrong. I cried like a baby, whilst the three members of staff in the room kept telling me to breathe and how well I was doing.

The doctor asked me if I wanted them to stop, and of course I said yes. It felt like someone was hacking my lower abdomen from the inside with a dull scalpel. That's the only way I can describe the pain. The doctor said they were booking me in again to have the procedure done under GA, one of the nurses told me the pain would go in 10 mins. Funny how it's slight pressure beforehand and now it's referred to as pain.

I felt ashamed and traumatised at the same time. One, because I'm in my 40s and gave birth to an 8lb baby naturally so my pain threshold is quite high, and two, I uncontrollably balled like a baby. I kept apologising I was that ashamed and disappointed in myself for not continuing with the procedure. All I could think about was the appointment gone to waste, the money gone down the drain as a result. 

Second appointment was rescheduled within 2 weeks and I have been mentally preparing myself for the pain when I wake up after the procedure. Got a call to say it's been moved forward, so my anxiety is now through the roof and the spasms I have been experiencing since the unsuccessful procedure are giving me the worst flashbacks. 

I'm waiting for the procedure and results before I take this further - one thing at a time, but I definitely believe that this process regardless of a women's pain threshold should not be done without a local or general anaesthetic. It's barbaric and inhumane in this day and age, in my view. 

I would be interested to know the number of this procedure done in a day across London and how many have to be rebooked to take place under sedation.