"Birth trauma and ongoing issues"

I gave birth in December 2022. Labour started off great in the birthing centre, at 10cm I had to be taken to the labour ward as I need monitoring as there was concern about my baby's heartbeat. After 2 hours of pushing I was informed my baby was back to back and an obstetrician came in and informed me that my option was a trial forceps birth. This involved being wheeled to theatre for a spinal block, episiotomy for the forceps, suffered a 3rd degree tear and lost 1 litre of blood, I had to be stitched up and I didn't get my golden hour with my baby or skin to skin until much later. I suffered injury from labour and my baby had a deep gash in his neck that wasn't spotted til day after he was born.

The aftercare wasn't great for 3 days in hospital, pressing buzzers did not warrant immediate response from staff, I presume because they were understaffed and overworked.

I am now 17 months post partum and suffering mentally and physically. I am currently waiting for birth reflections as my debrief last April wasn't overly helpful, I am on the waiting list for gynaecology which is around 61 weeks long. My gp's have not been very helpful, I have paid for private physio after attending women's health physio but I am still experiencing physical issues. I need to speak to a professional ASAP as I can't bear feeling how I feel.