"Unscheduled 'care' but where is the care?"

The unscheduled care team told me 'they are giving me a choice'. At my lowest, struggling to even get to the toilet, do basics, leave myself flat some days because I feel so low and plans to end my life. My choice they suggest?

Wait for a referral to the cmht which had already (to my knowledge) been rejected. And two nights of zopiclone.. How does that's help how I feel right now?

Waiting on a referral? how does that help anyone who is struggling to keep themselves alive for their next few hours. They asked what I wanted in terms of support, but they reality is, it didn't matter what I wanted because there was no alterative than to be sent home in the same state.

It's shocking there is no support in place for people out with 9-5, but even then there is no support really. What do people need to do? Because if you're a risk, I am told (previously) it's okay to end my life, but it's never "how can we reduce that risk, help you right now" so a person is made to feel hopeful and safe going home.

Do they have a single understanding that people in that position are struggling to do basics, how is it okay to be left on with a referral that may be rejected with no change in mh while they wait? And that can take ages.

There is more context to this story, but it needs to be said. I'm so sick of "care" from RCH which is random unhelpful suggestions, some times with good intentions, but I am not the only one that knows it isn't always the case and some staff make you feel worse with their lack of empathy and kindness.

I shouldn't have to be writing this and I usually prefer my story to be private, but no one listens. Please consider that the option of sending people in the same amount of stress isnt an "option" and "we're giving you a choice, what else do you expect" isn't going to fill any desperately low person with hope to hold on.

And just as an FYI, I don't mean that the alternative needs to be an admission, that is a whole different complaint in itself, but I know some practitioners that think that's all suicidal people expect oe hope for.

That is almost never the case, it's that I didn't feel listened to or validated, and so the whole experience was pointless and made me feel worse, so waiting for a referral, isn't really enough to get through the next few hours let alone the next few days.

And asking what i want from them, but knowing there is nothing they will offer because they're can't. They don't have resource. And it's so frustrating because if I reach out to my GP, they constantly tell me to used this exact service.

All I see are doors closing, but it's okay because there is a referral going in... Helpful care, I think not